new turning point

well, this is the news. since my dad yelled at me and told me that the painting i painted for him on his birthday is the worst painting ever, and i explained that if he didnt like it he shuld have said something and that my feelings go into my paintings, and he screamed at me that i shuld get happy because its his 67 birthday. and he yelled at me that i shuld have a job and that i must have tried drugs since my last boyfriend made them, etc, i explained that i chose to saty with them cuz its safe and he is the only dad jay has, and that i dont do drugs, that my first husbabnd was abusive, and hes like why didnt i just hit him on the head with a frying pan, i told him he has turned into a cruel and evil man. i have done notheing wrong, but my step mother starts chiming in and when i looked a t her i can see that she is causing all this and i say the devil in her eyes, bu havnt spoke to my dad. since this all happened i have harly been able to sleep, and i havnt been with opie since he was in prison, in fact thats the only time i was with opie. i thot he knew all this, but i guess my stepmother makes sure she tells him bad things about me. thats why i have to get out of there. the other day my blankets were missing. my step mom had been in my room and took my blankets. she was probaly hoping i would say something, but i found it in the closet in the play room. ? oh ya i just found out my dad isnt poor and i forgot to tell u how much my dad gets a month. he gets 900 fro social security, 600 from firefighters retirmnt, 1000 fro the va, and 200 from the church, every month, and she gets 300 a month from social security. wow huh? any way who cares,it doesnt matter i have to get out of the toxic environment.

court sucks. if i am a homeschooling  then jacob has to be under court supervioson, have a probation officer, in fact he is on probabtion for truancy. jay decided he is sick of all this crap and agreed to go to the 8th grade middle school, over by 1400 and adams. the bus will pick him up.and  in 6 mos if he is good all this will end. jay says buearacy sucks. in reno county they are the law. i was prepared to fight for my right to homeschool my child, and prove that i am a good parent and teacher. but jay chose a diff path. i think it will be a good experience for him to be around other kids, make some new friends. it will definitly free up my time, so i can concentrate on just being a parent and not his teacher too, and have time to go to college myself or work on my art career or just go back to being a secretary and make some damn money, i want the best for him, and social skills arent something i can provide him,and they are so important. i told him if in two years or even in 6 mos he doesnt like the public shcool he can go to job corp, or online public school, or the learning center. this is so much of a relief for me, jays probation officer, or supervioson officer is pretty nice, i have so many appointments this week, i got so many things to do. but sunday is trick or treat! monday is when they announce the winners of the 25k!
love u talk to u soon, i know theres more but i will remember later!!